Books, Reviews

The Fault in Our Stars~ Review

(If you don’t know what this book is, you probably live under a rock, especially considering it’s becoming a movie (EEEEEP!!!), but here’s the info anyway.)

The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

Despite the tumor-shrinking medical miracle that has bought her a few years, Hazel has never been anything but terminal, her final chapter inscribed upon diagnosis. But when a gorgeous plot twist named Augustus Waters suddenly appears at Cancer Kid Support Group, Hazel’s story is about to be completely rewritten.

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I’ve been struggling with this review.  I want to be honest, but I don’t really know exactly what my thoughts are about this…   Since I finished it, I’ve been looking at other stuff relating to it and trying to get my thoughts together, probably because it’s one of the only books I’ve read that has any real meaning.  (My books are made for escapin’, and that’s just what I’ll do, one of these days these books will give their fun and humor to you)… (that got carried away…)… (and it really didn’t make my point…) …(my point being that I read books mainly for enjoyment, not lesson learning…)

Anyway, I’ve been trying to figure it out, and then the final piece was glued in by reading a few other reviews on Goodreads, both from people who did not particularly like the book.  One because she found the characters pretentious and the story unrealistic (and was kind of really bashing John Green, which I’ll get to), and the other because she didn’t feel like anyone other than who had gone through the experience of having cancer or knowing someone closely with cancer had a right to joke about it.  Both of them had had experience with family or friends with cancer; they were perfectly entitled to their viewpoints.

Mine was different though, naturally; I haven’t had the same experiences.    But I did agree with some things.  So, here’s the deal.

First of all, it made me cry.  I’m just gonna throw that out there.  I was attached enough to these characters that when… oops, no spoilers… when you-know-what happened, I cried.  Actually, to be perfectly honest, I cried for the last eighty pages of the book… plus at another moment…  I’m a softie. Sue me.

Secondly, the characters were pretentious and unrealistic and talked exactly the same (all points made by one of the aforementioned reviewers), and several times when they went rambling into a dramatic speech or some long thought stream, I’d hear it in 36 year old man, John Green’s voice, instead of 16 year old girl Hazel Grace’s or swoony teen hottie Augustus Waters’s, which just… it just… ruined some of the book.

For example, this part: “His voice was low, smoky, and dead sexy.”  (pg. 11)  At which point I thought, Man, John Green, this must’ve been soooo much fun for you to write.  You definitely know how to reel in teenage girls.

But, that doesn’t actually relate to the beginning of that sentence, which was actually leading to the fact that if these characters didn’t have cancer, I don’t know that I would have liked them.  Well, probably Hazel, because she was sweet and fairly real, and I liked her outlook on life, mildly depressing though it was.  But Augustus would have been frustrating with all his metaphorical resonances and goals of heroism.  I guess he wasn’t that bad, but… Okay, I’m just going to quit now.  Let’s be honest, he’s adorable.  If he were real, I’d be laughing in his face, but he’s fictional, so I think he’s amazballs.  It’s the natural way of The Feels.

So, past these characters, who despite being slightly obnoxious, still stole my heart, I have to talk about the annoyances of this story being crammed into a book, which now that I read that back, doesn’t make much sense; let me explain.  ***BEWARE: SPOILERS AHEAD***  So, Gus died.  It made me mad because he really only died for the sake of story progression.  If their story was going to be resolved in 313 pages, he kind of had to die.  Their story had to be resolved, and both sides of Gus (Augustus and Gus) had to be shown, as well as the whole Peter Van Houten thing, and the falling in love thing, and the dying thing, so it didn’t feel like they got enough time together to truly bask in love.  I mean, first, she’s pushing him off, then they’re both in love in Amsterdam, then he’s dying. It’s good to show the sad, hard part of dying and cancer, but come on, couldn’t they have had a little more of that perfectness, without having death lurking around the corner.

Anyway, I could rant about that all day.  But I have to get to my last point.

I’m not going to go too far in this, because I think you should look this up for yourself if you haven’t already.  John Green wrote this book to cope with the death of Esther Earl.  I’m going to tell you to go to the This Star Won’t Go Out website here, and click around and read Esther’s story and visit her youtube and instagram pages.  She really seems like she was a sweet girl, deserving of a book in her honor.  I don’t think I should say anything else though, because I think you have to form your own beliefs.

Anyway, thanks if you made it through that garbled wreck of a review.  I doubt it helped any of you considering reading this book, but oh well, I shared.



Emerging from my Den of Insickquity & A Plan

I’ve been failing with this blog but that ends today, and I’ll explain my plan in a few moments.  First, I have to make excuses for myself, mainly because I’ve been saving that Den of Insickquity line for a week.

So, I was sick with the flu or a nasty cold or something; it sucked.  But as I was lying in bed, vaporizer steam coiling around me, brain clouded by cough drops, I thought, this is like, a Den of Illniquity.  Then, I revised that to Den of Insickquity because I realized illniquity didn’t ring quite as well as insickquity.  So… yeah.  I never nailed down the delivery…


I have formulated a plan… well… I am formulating a plan.  Right now.  As I type this.  Here we go!

(Yeah, so…. I’m including the original plan in normal font, then my 3-weeks-later thoughts in this bold, italicized font… I really should just scrap this post, but… I’ve waited waaaaay too long to use that Den of Insickquity joke, so just… just…. ok?)

1) Stockpile posts.

I need a pillow to fall into when I’m tired.  Just like I need pre-made blog posts to lean on when I’m busy. That metaphor actually turned out a lot better than I expected when I started making it.  (Soooo… I gave up on this, actually, after a few weeks of “stockpiling posts”- I did two- I just need to full on jump in, I think.)

2) Do some formatting.

I think I need more pages.  And I’m not sure what’s going on with the widgets at the moment.  Oh!  And I kind of have been ignoring categorizing my posts because… work.  So, I should probably do that stuff.  (Yeah…. That didn’t happen either)

3) Post this.  Then continue posting.

Well, I guess to abide by #1, I should probably hold off on posting this until I have at least a week’s worth of posts.  That seems fair.  (Or maybe I’ll just scrap this plan, since as I’m going back through it, I’m just saying screw it to everything…)

4) Get involved with other bloggy personas.

To make this blog successful, I believe I have to become a presence around the blogosphere/interwebs or whatever.  I did get a twitter already, so… *points to self* winner.  (I have actually been tweeting, it’s @haily_hay, in case you were wondering)

5) Be awesome.

Always important.  Plus, I felt like a list ain’t a list if it ain’t at least five things long.  Man, look at that masterpiece of a sentence.

So… that seems to be all I’ve got.  (And yet, somehow I still failed…)


Life and stuff

New Years Resolutions 2014

I’m still working it all out because I’ve been ridiculously busy this last week with family things (helping out with my little cousins, New Years Day dinner, and my grandpa had surgery earlier this week), so I figured I’d still keep it fairly easy and share some New Years Resolutions.  Plus, if I actually accomplish these this year, I can brag about it next year. So… here we go!

1) Read the book stack.

I think I mentioned my shame pile in the Top Ten Tuesday I did awhile back, but if you need a reminder, here it is:


Or, if you’d prefer a look at the covers…


Now, to be fair, I have read four of these since these pictures were taken.  I’ve also added one… Don’t judge.  Oh, and I gave one to a friend as a birthday present…Remember, no judging.

The up-to-date count is 36.  I really need to get through these. Or get rid of them. Something.  I will say, it was convenient when my procrastination got in the way of my ability to give a gift.

2) Build up this blog.

I want to make a site that will amuse and interest people.  I want to make bloggy friends.  I want to establish a strong internet presence, since my real life one is somewhat meek.  But you know what they say: the meek shall inherit the world.

Maybe world domination is my goal.

Just kidding.

*whispers behind hand* I’m not.

To be fair, I do have a secondary, ulterior motive for this blog, but I’ll share that when it works.  First, I have to conjure an awesome blog.

3) Exercise more.

I know. It’s everyone’s goal.  Except the already fit. Congratulations, health nuts, you get to be even more annoying than usual this time of year.  Good job shaming everyone.

I really don’t exercise much at all.  I’m not sporty or particularly athletic naturally, and I find no use for unfun activities in my life, but I’m going to do it.  I’m determined.

4)Start volunteering.

I both need and want to do this.  I like helping people; I like fixing things.  Plus, it’s a bit of a necessity for school stuff.  I’m very set with my grades, but if I don’t round myself out, I’m not going to have the stunning college application I desire.

5)  Write a book.

I’ve wanted to do this for quite some time, and I think I could; I have so much stuff floating around in my brain, I’m pretty sure I can pull a book out of it.  Plus, I’d like to add my stories to the many that have been created.  I think I could make something entertaining, and maybe put it up somewhere.

So far, I’ve just had trouble sticking with one idea long enough to put together any semblance of a novel.

Which leads me to six…

6) Follow through.

Just in general.  I have so many plans and ideas and wants in my head, but I rarely follow through, which I think is a major problem.  If I can’t manage to follow through on things, I have no chance at making myself happy.  Which is the ultimate goal in life, I think.

I feel like those are the main ones.  There are some others that I’m sure I’m not remembering right now, and some that just aren’t incredibly important.  For example, getting organized.  That’s more of a way to help along the rest of my goals anyway.

Plus, it is 11:52 and I’d really like this to show up as a post on 1/2/2014 which won’t happen if I don’t finish this up in the next 8 minutes.

So, do you have any resolutions?

Let’s be honest, most of us are doomed to fail at these.

But who’s to stop us from trying?

On that happy note,




Happ New Year!!!!!!!!!

Happy New Year!!!!

(I may be overdoing it on the exclamation points!)

I will post tomorrow, but today was very busy, and I need sleep, so I’ll leave you with a Happy New year and I hope it’s awesome for everyone!!!




Quick Update

If you couldn’t tell from the post title, this isn’t going to be a real post.  I just figured I should give a quick update on what’s what.  I’m going to hold off on posting for a little while, probably until 2014, while in the meantime, I will be stockpiling a few posts, reviews and recipes, and finishing the formatting of the blog, and… figuring out other bloggy things.   I just need to get myself together before I try posting on any sort of regular basis.

So, see ya in the new year.




Soooo… Guess who didn’t quite get her full week of posts done?  Me.  I have a good excuse though… I fell asleep.  Then, I decided to take a brief break because exams were coming up, and my soul was in jeopardy… Or at least my academic standing… I guess they aren’t really the same thing…

But guess who just fought her way through exam week?  Again, it’s me.

And seriously, I did those exams LIKE A BOSS.

That’s right. I’m using a GIF to illustrate my point.

Forewarning: I’m about to get super braggy and super nerdy at once.

I feel like I just slayed a dragon.

I feel like I could go out hunting Jaws and I wouldn’t need a bigger boat.  I would just use my super brain powers to get him to follow me back then harpoon himself.

If I could, I’d go up to Harry Potter right now and say, “You killed Voldemort?  Saved the world?  Didn’t die?  No big deal.  I got 94% on an AP Bio exam!  What now, Boy Who Lived?!”

Same with Katniss.  “You lived through two death rings?  Saved a country from oppressive rule?  Whatevs!  I lived through 4 days of mega-tests.  I saved myself from being a bum.  You, Katniss?!  You.  Have.  No.  Friends.  They all died!  Good job with that, Miss Mockingjay!”

I could kill some zombies right now!  Remy King?  Pfft!  She can’t beat me!  She can’t even keep it in her pants!  I throw a guy at her, DONE.  I WIN!  Cheating ain’t cheating if it’s the apocalypse seems to be her motto.  Off topic!  Back on track to my braggy self!

I feel like I could go all ninja- NO!  I feel like I could go all assassin Caelena Sardothien someone up in he-yah!  I feel like my references are so awesome, you’ll just ignore the bad parts!  Like that “he-yah!”  Seriously!  That was bad!  My fingers are crumbling from typing that horrid string of characters!

But, Imma keep goin’ ‘cuz  I got a million of these!

Kaidan Rowe?  Get yo drumsticks!  I’m challenging you to a drum off.  I’ve never even seen a real drum set, but you know what?  I’m gonna own you!

Alexandria Andros, Miss Apollyon,  Can’t-say-what-I-was-about-to-because-it’d-spoil-the-ending?  Let’s go hunt some demons, girl!  I can go buy a titanium garden spade.  While we’re at it, let’s go wakey-wakey-eggs-and-bakey us some Titans!

Imagine Dragons?  “That’s where my demons hide?”  I don’t have any hiding demons!  I just slayed ’em all!

I could show up Sicarius right now!  (Props to all y’alls who got that one!)

Really, Lorde?  We’ll never be royals?  Because I’m pretty sure I just got that status!

I can’t believe I’m about to say this… I can’t believe I’m going to bring this wackjob into my rant… But, I could take down Miley freakin’ Cyrus right now!  I’m pretty sure I could turn her into a normal person!  Do you understand what a big deal that is?!

That’s like getting Godzilla to hug you.  That’s like retaining control over an army of lions and tigers and bears.  Oh my!  That’s like convincing someone that ripping out your nails is a good plan.   That’s like … No…. *sigh*… Ooh!  Ooh- no…  Or… No… I can’t find the perfect analogy. It’s just dangling right out of- NOPE!  I got it!  Wait for it…. Wait for it… One more “wait for it”…

That’s like getting the government to work properly.

OOOOOOOOOOW!  No she didn’t!  Yes.  I did.

(Please, government don’t come after me, I’m just a teenage girl if you couldn’t tell by the plethora of YA book references.  I don’t even know what agency would come after me.  Would it be the CIA?  The FBI?  The NSA?  Would you just send a bunch of ninjas?  Would it be the ZWX?  That should totally be an agency.  Everyone would go around saying, “did you hear about the zwoox?”  Yes, that’s how it’d be pronounced.  And it would stand for… Zebra Walrus Xylophone.  Just kidding, that’s ridiculous.  That’s totally gonna be a band now that I’ve said it.  What about…  the Zambomba  Waldgrave Xiphoid agency?  You want to know what they would do?  They would monitor the transport of sword shaped instruments (Xiphoid) by German nobility (Waldgrave) in Spanish drums (Zambombas).  ZWX.  Just wait.  It’ll happen.)

Well… that got out of hand.  I was planning on actually talking about other things.  This was going to be a real post. I was planning on stopping after Jaws, but… it just kept pouring out of me, and I figured, eh, someone might get a kick out of my crazy.

For all my fellow students, hope you laid the smack down on your exams, too!



Top Ten Tuesday~ books on my winter TBR list

So, I had a snow day today, but…. I still put this off until fairly late in the day, and am now rushing to post something before Jeopardy comes on.  (8 minutes… eep!)  Which eliminates reviewing anything, since I didn’t finish a book today, and if I haven’t just finished the book, I’m lousy at reviews and can’t seem to think them up quickly.  Also, I posted a recipe yesterday, so that’s out.  And, unfortunately, I already used my get out of jail free card Saturday, when I just “talked ’bout crap.”

So!  I thought I’d check out the Top Ten Tuesday topic of this week, and saw it was Top Ten Books on my winter TBR list.  Which was perfect.  Because I literally have stacked up roughly 40 books in my room that I really need to read before I have to join hoarders anonymous , or something.

I spread them all out awhile back and took a picture. I have read three or four since then, but… stacked up, they’re the same height as the average ten year old…

Soooo… I’ll pick my top ten out of them.

Top Ten Tuesday is a meme hosted by The Broke and the Bookish.

.Elegy (Watersong, #4)The Unbecoming of Mara Dyer (Mara Dyer, #1)Unravel Me (Shatter Me, #2)Tidal (Watersong, #3)The Forsaken (The Forsaken, #1)In the After (In the After #1)Siege and Storm (The Grisha, #2)The 5th Wave (The 5th Wave, #1)

The Elite (The Selection, #2)The Diviners (The Diviners, #1)

There it is!

Sorry, no links and those picture sizes are all over the place, but I’ve already missed half of Jeopardy.  Deal with it!